It’s such a complicated thing, isn’t it? The feelings you get, they’re unexplainable. Who you fall in love with, you never know who it’ll be. Your best friend. A complete stranger. What I like to say it is? The luck of the draw. Why you ask? Because you just never know when you’ll fall in love. It can be at the most unexpected of times. But you know what? I think that’s when love is at its strongest. When you keep looking for love, instead of letting love find you, it won’t come. At least, that’s what I’ve experienced and observed- especially for me. I’ve always been looking so hard and have tried finding someone to share my love with. It’s never worked out though. But, the moment I stop looking and just let it go, someone pops up out of the woodwork. That’s how I met my ex-boyfriend. I stopped looking for love, and then love found me. We met through Marching Band. The good part of our relationship was amazing. I was the happiest I’ve ever been. I’ll never forget the feeling of waking up in the morning and going to bed at night, knowing that someone is making me their first and last thought of the day. I haven’t been in love since then. At first, I was really happy being single. I could do whatever I wanted and never had to worry about feeling guilty. I took that a little too far though. I became a horrible person. I’ve changed though. I’ve changed for the better. I’m proud of who I am now.
The subject that everyone is afraid of doing- growing up. Not everyone is ready to go out and face the “real world.” Not everybody is ready to leave mommy and daddy, being responsible for their own-selves. Everybody isn’t ready to leave their nearest and dearest friends and family behind them and start a new life. But you know who is? I am. I have been for the past year. Going off to college and being on my own has been a Godsend. I’ve been able to grow out of the shell I was always in. I experimented and faced trial and error. I conquered all the challenges and obstacles that were set before me. I grew and matured. I didn’t do all of this on my own though. And God knows that I wasn’t perfect through the process. I screwed up… a lot. Not everyone is perfect. It’s all a process of growing up. You meet people and do things that change your life forever. My advice? Let things happen. Don’t try and keep everything stagnant. There’s this quote that I read once. It said, “If there aren’t any ups and downs in your life, you’re not living.” The picture that went with this quote was a heart monitor, beating up and down. I thought this quote was perfect. Life isn’t fun if everything just goes your way. You don’t learn anything that way. You learn from experience. You learn from your mistakes.
I firmly believe that everything happens for a reason. In my case, the people that I met, the things that I did, or didn’t do for the matter, all helped mold me into who I am now.